Here are my New Year’s resolutions from last year:
1. I will not compare myself to others.
2. I will not cry in front of DH and DS.
3. I will not google baby and fertility stuff after 10am and before 6pm.
4. I will not test before 14dpo.
5. I will count my blessings daily.
I failed the first four miserably. Number five is easy, but can sometimes be dangerously overshadowed by the others. I have no resolutions this year. I am resolute about doing everything in my power to have a baby, but the manifestation of my actions is beyond my control so it does not make for a traditional New Year’s resolution. And anyway, my life is measured out in cycles, not months or years. So here are my New Cycle’s resolutions:
1. Eat organic
2. Start yoga
3. Drink water
4. Minimise MIL
5. Look after DH
And, for the record, here are my cycle stats to date:
Number of cycles TTC: 23
Number of pregnancies: 2
Number of early losses: 1
Number of late losses: 1
Number of babies lost on September 11th: 2
Number of children buried: 1
Number of failed Clomid cycles: 2
Number of failed IUI cycles: 2
Number of successful IUI cycles: 1
Number of successful natural cycles: 1
Number of babies held in arms (not in coffin): 0
That’s a tragic list to end the new year with. (cue up the trite words of consolation that could possibly make you feel worse not better if you didn’t know they were coming from someone worse off than you are) Put it behind you. Start again. I like your new cycle resolutions. I’ve got a yoga dvd on the way, been doing yoga 20 years, I’ll let you know how I get on! Happy New Year! Be good to yourself.
Your resolutions last year were pretty tough, especially when I read your cycle stats. Can I say that I hope 07 is a better year without sounding too pollyanna?
p.s. – if you figure out how to minimise MIL can you tell me the secret?
Hi. I haven’t checked in with you for a while. Sounds like you’ve been busy and have had some real positive things happening. We have moved on from AI to me being an egg donor and a surrogate for my IPs.January is our month. 2 trips to California.Like you said, IVF isn’t so bad. Once you get used to all the drugs and shots, it’s a cakewalk.Being a donor now too means even more, but so worth it. Good luck to you. Fingers crossed.:) Heidi
hi feebee sorry to hear your iui didnt work. you really are taking charge of the situation thoguh with your ivf straight away. will be thinking of you. just read back on previous post of mine where i said i wasnt going down the obsessive compulsive route. i just think you might have taken it up wrong. in reality i dont think my marriage would survive me again in my active ttc persona. am not directly ttc but not taking precautions and having sex around the fertile time, just more scared of pregnancy than ever before, and am releived when my periods arrive. i know thats not making sense when the result i want is another member of family. my daughter brings so much fun into our lives that i get upset at the thoughts of never having that again.
will check back on you again and keep everything crossed
ger
D – I have a yoga for fertility DVD on the way too!
Jenny – I’ve read a bit about your MIL on your blog. It’s a tough one. We’re at the stage where we have to take a break every now and again as she is so abusive to us. So we say to her face that we just can’t see her for a week and then run quickly in the opposite direction. Not sure that would work for everyone!
Heidi – you’re a fast mover too! Best of luck this month.
Ger – hope you get what you want.