As promised (see yesterday’s comments), I didn’t test this morning. You see, I have willpower, I just need an incentive!
The cramping has been mild and intermittent, in fact, if I wasn’t watching my body so closely I doubt I’d even notice it. Did have to get up to pee during the night, and I’ve had a slight pain behind my left boob this morning, but no other symptoms to report.
Just before I left this morning I had some slightly darker than usual CM on my pants. Not brown, but a pale mustardy yellow colour. Was expecting to see more of it when I wiped, but that CM was clear. My initial reaction when I saw my pants was a calm feeling of “Oh well, I suppose that’s it”, a mixture of disappointment and relief. The relief part came from the fact that I thought I had been put out of my misery, and although I didn’t get a result, at least I was somewhat back in control. This was immediately followed by a feeling of terror, but it did make me realise for a second that if AF does arrive, it won’t be the end of the world; no-one will have died and nothing will have been taken away from me, it will just mean I will have my baby in July and not June.
When I got to work I went to the loo again, and when I wiped this time there was clear CM with blobs of brown in it. AF or implantation bleed? You decide.